ITS A NEW YEAR, A NEW BEGINNING

So,

Its a new year and i always have different things i want to achieve at the beginning of the year but as the clock struck 12 last night(while i was on the train after missing church). I realised that I made such of a mess of things the last year and I can hardly think of any positives to bring into this new year.

So many mistakes, so many wrong decisions, so many friends lost.. so many of everything negative, and as a result I enter this new year with a feeling of desperation. I am desperate not to do anything that will make me regret this new year as I have regretted the last year.

Therefore,

As this new year begins, I am going to try to do things right. Make the right decisions, think with my head and not mess things up. I am going to get rid of the bad habits I have acquired and accept that i am not invisible. I am going to be a better person, I am not going to make rash decisions. I am aware it is going to be hard to achieve these things, i have gotten to the point where i dont remember who i used to be, which is scary, i dont recognise this person i have become and i dont even like her.

This blog is really about me.. trying to discover who i am, who i was and a way to keep myself in check. Its a sort of record book. It is also a way for me to re-evaluate my life, try to figure out when things started going wrong.


This is the beginning of a new beginning for me.