I am ready to face the truth. i have to move on. You have played your part in the script of my life and i yell CUT!. That's the end of your role, now i have to go on the next scene. It does not include you, at least not in the immediate future. Even if it does, you will only be an extra not the leading man that you have portrayed for so long.
I want a fresh start and i find its impossible with you still lurking around. You are my obsession, i always find myself coming back to you and telling you everything, my deepest secrets, regrets and mistakes waiting for you to tell me how to feel. Your reactions are my reactions, without doing very much at all, you are able to control me. I don't like it. I know I am at my most open and vulnerable with you but i think i should learn to be open with someone else. I have pushed this enough.
I have to accept the fact that you might be the reason i am stuck atimes. You hold all my mistakes against me and refuse to consider the possibility that change is possible and i dont need that around me. I want to be able to move forward in my life and your cynicism makes me cynical about the possibility of that happening.
I love you and i always will, but i know i am a big girl and i can stand alone without constantly looking to you for direction and even if that is what i need, you are not the person i should turn to. I have my God who you don't believe in anyway.
I want to say THANK YOU for the role you have played in my life and i am extremely grateful, you really are an angel. You are my weakness, my guilty pleasure.... no more. From this moment, i say a gradual good bye to you. It is not going to be an immediate end to our relationship but it reminds me that the end is near withouth a climatic episode.
NOW BOW OUT AND GO!!!
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hmm. this one about gradually cutting off may not work o. sometimes you have to go cold turkey to take forward steps
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